June 12th, '18
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message by Kris Jackson
ON MY PILLOW
night long I make my bed to swim; I water my couch with my tears" (Psalm 6:6)
In the first stanza of the psalm David is in
bed, in the second stanza he's on the couch. That happens when one paces the
floor at night, insomnia. Or it can happen when a virus has you running back
and forth between the two, swimming in a cold sweat. Or it can be the result of
a lovers' spat, i.e., "sleeping on the couch", or the grief of some serious
loss. The main thing is that David faced this tear-shed alone, "my bed", "my
couch" and "my tears". Depression may make the bed seem wetter than it really is.
"I make my bed to swim" sounds a bit exaggerated. But we can afford him
sympathy because we've all slept on wet pillows one time ore another. The verse
begins with the words, "My eye wastes away because of grief..." Lids swollen, the
whites bloodshot, pupils glazed over with mist. He can't see straight because
he can't think straight. The pressure valve releases. Next thing the pillow is
It's important first to know that God
understands. "Jesus wept" is the shortest verse in the Bible (John 11:35), but
it may contain the deepest mercy. Tears are love in liquid form. They don't
just turn on and off unless you're from Hollywood. God births tears. To relieve
stress. To remove infection like a lanced wound. To let us know we are human
and not just callous rocks. Watering is what makes gardens grow. David watered
his couch and out of that watering came masterpieces like Psalm 23. Notice
tears come from the inside out. Nothing external caused those tears. The hurt
was on the inside so the healing also comes from the inside.
The key is to let it out then get up and get
active again. Since he mentions both bed and couch it may be that our psalmist
is spending too much time lying around. Warfare is accomplished on one's feet
or at least on one's knees but seldom reclined on one's back. When the going
gets tough, the tough get going. (Not back to the couch).
There were probably legitimate reasons for his
tears. Soaked pillowcases testify of more than minor heartbreak. He'd been
smacked between the eyes with a two-by-four. We're talking a death or divorce,
incarceration of a son or the diagnosis of something terminal. "Tears on my
pillow" assumes a facedown posture. The sobbing is muffled by the goose down.
Perhaps this will help. David shed lots of tears so you are not alone in your
experience. There are others who pay a shrink $100 an hour begging to feel the
catharsis you feel. Be thankful that your emotional pipes are not clogged shut.
And realize that nothing is beyond hope with God. He can bring that man home.
He can touch the hardest heart. And for the bereaved there is always a
beautiful word called resurrection. Jesus came out of the grave before
dawn. The weeping that endures for a night turns to joy in the morning (Psalm
30:6). David will dance again. Mary sees the silhouette of a Person through the
Easter morning fog. It looks like Jesus. Her greatest fears are alleviated in a
moment. Job is restored twice of what he had before. Peter makes a comeback
after the setback. Spring bulbs burst forth in florid beauty after the long
chill of winter. If the tears have made your bed to swim then keep swimming. He
won't suffer you to drown. If you'll just turn over and pretend to float you'll
drift off in His peace and your sleep will be sweet.